I realized yesterday that I don't like myself when I am under pressure. The past few days have been terribly busy for me here at work. (Clearly things have eased up slightly since I have time to blog, right?) But I just didn't like myself. I was short with people... I was even referred to as "snippy." That is just not who I am under normal circumstances.
But therein lies the rub, eh? When my circumstances change, my personality changes. When things are not as I would have them to be, I become someone I was not meant to be.
So last night as I was going to sleep, God reminded me of my circumstances.
- I live in an appartment that has heat in a city that is experiencing prolonged periods of below freezing temperatures.
- I do not want for food. In fact, I could stand to eat a lot less.
- I have a job. Even if it is a bit stressful at times, nobody's life is at stake.
So the point is that sometimes I just have to choose to not let things affect me. And when faced with the way my reality compares to that of others... that is an easy choice, I guess.
Sorry for not being funny and lighthearted today... maybe tomorrow.